waiting

and i just wanted to let you know..
that i'm nothing without you.
and it kills me to hear it when you say that i deserve better than you.
because i don't think you realize that you are my better.
you are my everything.
people say to not make your other your everything,
because when they leave, your left with nothing.
if i didnt have you...
nothing would be the next best thing.
i  really don't think you understand how much i love you.
how i have given up my world for you...
and i still am.
things are complicated.
trust me i understand.
but i still love you. no matter what.
and i don't think i could ever make you understand that.
you say your sorry for hurting me.
this time it wasnt on purpose.
i understand.
but it still hurts.
it feels like someone ripped of the band-aid
that i have placed oh so carefully on my heart.
i was told to keep the wall around my heart up..
but i didnt listen
brick by brick i took it down.
just for you
half way done and realized i had to rebuild it.
but your worth it.
every second of heartache.
every beat of pain that i  live with.
your worth it.
and i don't think you understand that either.
how i'm willing to live with this pain.
how i'm going to wake up every morning with tears in my eyes.
and i do it all for you.
people say i should move on.
thats not what i want to do.
because i just don't know how right now.
because all i have known is pain.
and if i get to have you back.
its worth it.
please understand that your worth it to me.
people question me, with doubt in their eyes
"what if you don't get him back?"
so what.
i'm not giving up on you, like so many others have done.
and i'm stilling loving you with each shattered piece of my heart.
i dont know if you can handle that.
but its the only thing i know.
i know how to love you.
i may not know how to keep you happy,
or make your pain go away.
or how to uncomplicate your life
but i know how to love you.
and thats all i can give right now.
and i  guess what i'm trying to say is that..
i'm waiting for you.